Really? Are you quite done yet?

I don't even know where to start.

I guess I could go on some overdone rant about how Im a bad, bad blogger who hasn't posted anything new in like a month. But you all probably know how that goes "Im busy" "I didn't know what to talk about" "I didn't have anything to share" "life got in the way" etc... Yeah all those things. So, Im sorry about my absence.

Im sure we all feel like our life can be difficult sometimes. I have a big sadness in my heart for some of the things that are happening in my life. And aint it true; when it rains, it pours. Literally, I think people have gone into institutions for less that the hand that I have been delt right now. Okay, maybe thats a little dramatic.

Im trying to stay positive and use these experiences as stepping stones towards a new future. Im trying to find happiness and peace in my heart. Its hard. I want to blame and point fingers. I want to pretend like nothing is wrong. Im tired of facing the music. And while it might be hard to understand whats going on here in my crazy lady land (I haven't really shared a lot of things publicly), I do want people to know that both Gavin and I are heathly and safe.

I will let everyone know that my sweet, little Ditto dog had to make a trip to the ER vet this evening. He got bit by another dog and has some pretty serious head wounds. I think he will be okay, I don't know. He has some serious swelling around his head area and Im hoping that everything will work out. Please keep him in your thoughts, and pray if thats your thing. Any dog mommy/daddy will know how heavy my heart feels tonight. Seriously, why?



I will say I feel like I have had my fill of hardship. Im ready to move forward. What ever I did to piss off God or karma or whom/what ever, Im sorry. Please stop. I get it.

I know my woes are light and I am certainly a lucky and blessed person when I look at my life as whole. Im grateful for the wonderful people and experiences that help me grow. I try hard. Im just feeling like I have some hardcore bad juju right now. I just want to better tomorrow than I am today, and that is apparently way harder than I thought that it was going to be.

Think of my Ditto. Keep him safe in your thoughts. My problems are small comparativly to so many things. I guess life is all about perspective. . .

All Better

Well, I fixed it (I hope)! I had to change stuff around on over HALF of my photo posts. I forgot to post Sept 20th. That messed up a lot of stuff. I was really, really hoping that every photo could have its own separate post, but I can't figure out how have a new/old post, so day 42 and day 43 are sharing a post. I feel better about it now. Thats the kinda stuff that drives me crazy until its fixed, or I just give up. Didn't wanna just give up on this project, I have way too much invested in it already! Plus I enjoy it A LOT!

And because posts aren't all that fun if they don't have a photo to go with it, and Chester provides hours and hours of entertainment everyday:



I hope thats comfy dog. And where exactly are your front legs?

Harumph

Well poop. My 365 blog is all sorts of jacked up. Im missing my photo from Sept 20th (I think, or there about). I have a photo for that day it just didn't get posted. Which means my numbering is off. Or something like that. I can't believe it. Im so pissed I can hardly stand it.

Plus awhile back I kinda got freaked out about some of my stuff on Flickr so I changed a whole bunch of the permissions on photos of Little G. I didn't really think it through because now you can't see those photos on my photo blog. I changed the permissions back to "public" but it didn't really fix that problem. I think I have to re put in the HTML. Blah. This is total messing with my artistic harmony.

Heres a photo just because. Ahh the dogs life . . . Im sure Chester isn't freaking out about any of his stuff.

Fairmount

Hopefully you all know me well enough to know Im a little weird. Hopefully you will take that knowledge into account while reading this post.

I did a lot of great things these past few days. My favorite thing that I did was spend time at Fairmount Cemetery. I took a million, billion photos. I was helping my Mom by taking some photos for a paper she is writing. It was the best day. Being at the cemetery gave me a lot to think about. There was so much to know and see and learn from. Some of it was sad. Some of it was funny. It was a beautiful, peaceful day. I want to go back. I literally took hundreds of photos so I will only share a handful with you.

It was interesting to learn at little bit of history about this place. Farimount has been serving the Denver communities since 1890! Thats incredible! Im sure someone out there now thinks Im a total whack-a-do, but I really did enjoy this day. I left feeling like I had a whole different perspective on life. It can be very short, or very long. You get to choose the legacy you leave behind. People you don't even know will be touched by your life. You matter, no matter how long you spend on this earth. It was a good day :)

On a side note, I might not have chosen the most appropriate footwear for this adventure:

Live and learn. At least I looked good (you know for the zero other people that were wandering around the cemetery that day). Any woman will tell you, heels and grass don't mix.

One is the loneliest number...

Something else that makes me happy today is the fact that it is 11/1/11. I like that. Its special. It won't happen again for a long time and Im glad I got to be part of it this time around! Yeah, ONE day!!

What Happened to Fall?

Umm didn't Fall just get here? I swear it just got here.

While running some errands this morning I decided to stop by Bath and Body Works to grab my all time favorite candle, Leaves. Its the best candle ever and they have it in store for maybe 2 nano seconds every year. I get to the store and notice the big sign out front that says "All Fall items are 50% off." Well great, 50% off fits into my budget! Maybe instead of getting a little candle, I can now spend the same amount I was planning on spending and get a bigger candle. I was trying to be optimistic. I knew that because that sign was out, that there would be very little Fall items left, and the would definitely be NO Leaves items left. I go in the store anyway.

Um yeah. Christmas. Everywhere. They weren't messing around. Im talking balls to the wall Christmas.

Sigh. Fall, you are a sneaky little mistress. This year you came late. You danced your little dance and left a trail of swirling leaves in your wake. Im sorry that Christmas has stolen your spotlight. Im sure Thanksgiving feels your pain. You should start a support group together. Ill come to the meetings.

I managed to find a pumpkin candle and a marshmallows candle that I liked. They should get me through these next few weeks.

But in the spirit of embracing the present, I treated myself to some Christmas/Winter novelties, A peppermint shake from Chick-fil-a, and some peppermint bark form Williams Sonoma.

Just these few little extras have made the day good. The peppermint tastes cold and crisp and wintery. Im not ready quite yet to embrace winter/Christmas with open arms but I loved this little taste test into the future!

Happy and Halloween

We have had some happy around here lately. We spent some time at the cabin. By "some time" I mean less than 24 hours there and back but it was still fun. And in case you were wondering, Yes, you can fit 5 dogs, 3 adults, 1 toddler, all the gear and a smattering of plumbing supplies into an Escalade. There was only a little bit of snow, but a lot of cold.

We also enjoyed the festivities of Halloween. We went to trunk or treat, we carved pumpkins, handed out candy at the house, and Little G and I even made it to a few neighbors houses. I can not tell you how happy Little G makes me. 

I love Halloween. It was fun this year.

Lots of photos, not a lot of words lately. Life is good when you have the cutest monkey on the block.