I guess I could go on some overdone rant about how Im a bad, bad blogger who hasn't posted anything new in like a month. But you all probably know how that goes "Im busy" "I didn't know what to talk about" "I didn't have anything to share" "life got in the way" etc... Yeah all those things. So, Im sorry about my absence.
Im sure we all feel like our life can be difficult sometimes. I have a big sadness in my heart for some of the things that are happening in my life. And aint it true; when it rains, it pours. Literally, I think people have gone into institutions for less that the hand that I have been delt right now. Okay, maybe thats a little dramatic.
Im trying to stay positive and use these experiences as stepping stones towards a new future. Im trying to find happiness and peace in my heart. Its hard. I want to blame and point fingers. I want to pretend like nothing is wrong. Im tired of facing the music. And while it might be hard to understand whats going on here in my crazy lady land (I haven't really shared a lot of things publicly), I do want people to know that both Gavin and I are heathly and safe.
I will let everyone know that my sweet, little Ditto dog had to make a trip to the ER vet this evening. He got bit by another dog and has some pretty serious head wounds. I think he will be okay, I don't know. He has some serious swelling around his head area and Im hoping that everything will work out. Please keep him in your thoughts, and pray if thats your thing. Any dog mommy/daddy will know how heavy my heart feels tonight. Seriously, why?
I will say I feel like I have had my fill of hardship. Im ready to move forward. What ever I did to piss off God or karma or whom/what ever, Im sorry. Please stop. I get it.
I know my woes are light and I am certainly a lucky and blessed person when I look at my life as whole. Im grateful for the wonderful people and experiences that help me grow. I try hard. Im just feeling like I have some hardcore bad juju right now. I just want to better tomorrow than I am today, and that is apparently way harder than I thought that it was going to be.
Think of my Ditto. Keep him safe in your thoughts. My problems are small comparativly to so many things. I guess life is all about perspective. . .
